I’m gonna lay down my burdens
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
I thought of this spiritual in the middle of the night. It’s 4:22 am right now, and I know I can’t go back to sleep until I write this final study for you guys.
What is it that you’re carrying? Are you ashamed of an abortion, or cheating, or lying, or hurting someone? Are you ashamed of yourself? Do you wish that you had made different choices?
Are you hopeless? Do you feel you will never be loved completely by a man?
I encourage you to look up. When this Bible study began I knew that God was going to do something amazing for us, but had no idea what it was. He wants to free us ladies. Free us from our pasts, from our shame, from our self hatred. He wants to free us from the lies that we believe. The lies that ex told you to make you stay with him, the lies that your father or mother or crush said that have stayed with you for years. He wants to wash those things away.
What can wash away my sins?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.
Did you know that God does not want you to punish yourself? He does not want you to hold on to your past, or even your present. He does not use guilt to get you to stop sinning or to change. He uses love. He loves until we accept Him as God. He never shames us. He never judges us unfairly. He knows our story. In a Psalm David said that God knows our frame. He is our beginning and our end if we will accept Him.
Think about it. Is the life you’ve been living been making you happy? Does everything feel as good as you thought it would? Does your sexual liberation fulfill you? Don’t you hate that now this man that doesn’t deserve you has a hold on your emotions and body that he shouldn’t have? Deep down we know that what we are doing is destroying ourselves, and yet we continue. We believe the lie that we aren’t hurting ourselves, that we aren’t doing anything wrong. That it’s how to get what we want.
And yet today we are farther from what we want than we have ever been. God’s love is what will change you. When you stop fighting His voice, when you stop hating His Word and His laws, when we stop running. He will never stop coming for us, He will never stop hoping that we will turn to Him or fighting to protect us from the messes we’ve made. He loves us without fear, and He does so because He created us. You and Me.
I’ve been so ashamed that I stood in the shower and wished the water would wash it away. I scrubbed myself with soap and cried, even as my skin started to rash. I thought that was how God felt, that He wanted to punish me. I’m so emotional as I write this. I thought God would hate the sight of me, because of the mistakes I had made. But that’s not God, that’s the enemy. The enemy seeks to devour those that he can tell are weak. Our sin, the things we did and lived in and continued to do even though we knew they were wrong, he uses them to take control over us. he hates us. he hates the beauty and talent that God has put in us. he never wants us to feel God’s love and would rather us be ashamed and bitter.
Every year I pray for the women in Amber Rose’s slut walk. Society, men, women in their lives have misused them, abused them and labeled them. They walk around as if they are proud of their labels, as if they are reclaiming themselves from the abuse. As if by wearing the label, they can protect themselves from shame. I pray that they and you realize that God does not label. He did not label Rahab, he redeemed her. He did not label Bathsheba, He made her the mother of the king of Israel. He did not throw Ruth away, He had a great plan for her. Do you realize that God changes our label? He takes society’s label off of us, and calls us His daughter. His child, a princess, yet a servant of the Most High God.
As this challenge comes to a close, I encourage you to keep going in your Bible study. These past few days have blessed me so much. I wish I could explain the healing and wholeness that has happened within these 5 days. Expect something amazing to happen to you each day this year. I can’t wait for 2018. God bless you, God will bless you for turning your heart to Him and surrendering to Him. Please try Jesus this year. That’s the only way this year will be different, better, than the last.
Love this song!