Why don’t I dream of being a better person? Why don’t I dream of bringing people to Christ? Why don’t I ever dream grand visions of preaching Christ to millions of people?
I sometimes wonder if my priorities are in order. Do I care about the things that matter most?
I ask myself this as I look on the Audi website and drool over their beautiful new midsize SUVs. I’ve always had a taste for the finer things in life. Literally since I was a kid. I remember arguing with my uncle when I was six years old about one day having a mansion with servants and lots of kids with a nanny. My family was nowhere near rich, we lived in a modest home in Capitol Heights, Md at the time.
It must have been movies I watched or something like that, but I’ve always wanted MORE! When I was a teenager I heard Pastor Andy Stanley’s prayer based on a Psalm that God not allow him to get too rich so that he won’t become greedy. Something like that. In my immaturity I immediately thought about how stupid he was to say that. Being rich doesn’t mean being greedy, yet the Bible warns the rich that getting to heaven will be much more difficult.
I’ve learned to value family more and friends more and work and success less. I’ve always wanted more for me and my family, but I understand that God will not only provide for me, but for them too. He will take care of us. He will take care of you. Living lavishly is nice, but it doesn’t replace nor even come close to the value of a close relationship with God. Stuff doesn’t matter in light of eternity. Those Louboutins will not mean anything when you’re dead (and they probably won’t fit.
So I’m refocusing my plans for my life, to seek God’s glory instead of riches or even fame (who wants to be famous anyway?). My trust is in God for everything, and I know that wherever He leads me that my most essential needs will be met.
God’s plan for us is always amazing and far beyond what we could ever ask or think, but sometimes our destiny is scary too. It’s something totally out of our comfort zone and priorities. You may want to be a megachurch pastor, but God may want you to be a missionary in a third world country. You may want to be the next Beyonce, but God may want you to lead worship at a local church. Although being Beyonce sounds more glamorous and amazing than leading worship, fulfilling God’s plan will be much more rewarding.
So many of my blogs are God talking to me and admonishing or instructing me on an issue. I apologize if it sounds like I’m preaching at you, but as I write and contemplate, God is preaching and teaching me. None of these blogs I write are areas I have conquered. They are individual cracks in Angela’s surface that I’m working on. But I’ve got a lot of life to live, and a lot of cracks for Jesus to fill in while I’m here on this earth. We are all a work in progress.
P.S. here is a nice blog my mom sent me about understanding true beauty in Christ : http://www.christianity.com/devotionals/encouragement-for-today-proverbs-31/encouragement-for-today-june-9-2017.html