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Prioritizing Repentance

Ladies,

Lately, I have been struggling with spending time with the Lord. I feel extra guilty to admit that, but it’s true! I’ve been working a lot and I became a stage manager for a local play (I’ll let you guys know about our next show!).

I hope you’ll pray for me. I could really use it. June 16th was my ex’s birthday, and it took all my strength and every distraction to keep me from messaging him. I knew it wouldn’t be a good idea to open that door back up, but I was just really tempted.

Anyway, it’s been eight months since I broke up with my ex fiance’ and I am more confused than ever. I’ve been grappling about the reason for my existence. Why am I here?

There’s gotta be more to life than paying the bills. I’ve been looking for something. I have a God-sized hole in my heart and I constantly fill it up with doubts and questions.

Anyway, enough about me and my mess. I want to encourage you (as I encourage myself) to make a point to spend daily time with the Lord. It has become a twice a week thing for me lately, other than reading a verse here and there. I know that God doesn’t bless me based on the length of my Bible study time or prayers, but I desire to spend more time with him. I know that spending time with him is the only way to keep my head above water.

Typically when I spend time with God I play music. We all know how music can set a positive or negative mood. I play a song that encourages me to worship or pray, and just try to talk out my confusion or fears or thankfulness to God.

I rarely have enough time, but I try to make time to repent. Repentance isn’t just for when you accept Christ, it’s a discipline that all Christians should have. It’s a moment where you acknowledge your mistakes and ask God to forgive you for them. It’s also a great time to ask for His help to overcome them.7beb7e4c5872f59bdb65c0d73c9664c3

David gives us an example of repentance in Psalms 41:4

As for me, I said, “O Lord, be gracious to me;

Heal my soul, for I have sinned against You.

Christians make mistakes, but when we come to God truly repentant, He immediately forgives us. So much so, that He forgets what we’ve done. What a great gift!

Verses to Meditate on This Week

James 5:19-20

19Brethren, if anyone among you wanders from the truth, and someone turns him back, 20let him know that he who turns a sinner from the error of his way will save a soul from death and cover a multitude of sins.

If you see a fellow Christian wandering from the truth! Help them out, pray for them, and seek to bring them back to the fold.

Psalms 51:1-12

1Have mercy on me, O God,

because of your unfailing love.

Because of your great compassion,

blot out the stain of my sins.

2Wash me clean from my guilt.

Purify me from my sin.

3For I recognize my rebellion;

it haunts me day and night.

4Against you, and you alone, have I sinned;

I have done what is evil in your sight.

You will be proved right in what you say,

and your judgment against me is just.

5For I was born a sinner—

yes, from the moment my mother conceived me.

6But you desire honesty from the womb,

teaching me wisdom even there.

7Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean;

wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

8Oh, give me back my joy again;

you have broken me—

now let me rejoice.

9Don’t keep looking at my sins.

Remove the stain of my guilt.

10Create in me a clean heart, O God.

Renew a loyal spirit within me.

11Do not banish me from your presence,

and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me.

12Restore to me the joy of your salvation,

and make me willing to obey you.

 

I hope this helps! Peace, love, and blessings,

xo Angela

Btw, here’s a snap of me at my cubicle. lol

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Stand Up For Yourself!

I was talking with my little brother yesterday while we were at the movies about a friend he knew in college. He told me how her boyfriend had cheated on her eight times before she broke up with him.

I wasn’t shocked to hear this. There are far too many people these days with no character and no integrity. A real man gives his heart to one woman and doesn’t make her share it.

When I thought about that young lady, I prayed for the many other women in her circumstance. Raise your hand if you’ve been cheated on. raise your hand

Anyway, I don’t think enough people teach women how to stand up for themselves. Too often we just accept however people treat us so that we won’t have to be alone. God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.

3 Times You Need to Stand Up for Yourself

  1. I’ve had people say they are going to be there for me and then never show up. Everyone drops the ball sometimes, but if I can never count on you, we have a problem. If a man/woman in your life isn’t a person of their word, it’s time for your to stand up for yourself.
  2. There’s nothing worse than being talked down to. There have been far too many times in my life where I have accepted the bad treatment and was too afraid to stand up for myself with the fear that I would lose my job or position. I remember when one guy who was emotionally abusive broke up with me for no reason, and I cried in the bathroom begging him not to. I lacked the wisdom and the strength to let that dead weight go.
  3. When people encourage you to do things that you don’t want to do or push you beyond your boundaries, it’s time to say goodbye. You are a woman who is worthy of respect and honor. God sees you as His most precious jewel. If you say no, it means no!

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3 Ways to Stand Up for Yourself

In a lot of these situations, it’s tough to know what to do. But trust me, there are definitely ways you can stand up for yourself in a classy way.

  1. If someone won’t show up and keep their word, try talking to them and tell them you are cutting them off. Communication is key, and hopefully, they can learn a lesson from losing you. If you don’t have the strength to face them, that’s fine. Just block them, unfriend them, delete them and move on your beautiful self. No one needs that type of negativity.
  2. I’ve unfortunately known women who were abused in different ways. Manipulation and games is a form of mental abuse. It is done by people who seek to control you. Whoever it is in your life who is talking down to you or treating you as less than a queen has to go–NOW! Write them a letter if you can’t do it face to face. If it’s at work or at a commitment outside of work, begin to warn the person and make them aware of their behavior. If they don’t respond well, then look for other jobs. At least you tried to rectify the situation. I pray God open another door for you.
  3. This is something women constantly face. Peer pressure is real, even for adults. If you don’t want a drink, don’t drink. If you don’t want to go to a certain place, don’t go. If you don’t want to have sex, then don’t have sex. Listen to the Holy Spirit in you. Your gut tells you that you don’t feel comfortable, or that you don’t want to do something. Listen to it. People who don’t like you because you follow what your conscience or your heart is telling you are hurting you, not helping you. Stand up for yourself, and explain to them your motivations, hopes, dreams, and boundaries (if they are worth the trouble and are usually a good friend. If it’s Joe Schmo from the Cornerstore, just move on). The people who love you will back up and respect your point of view.

Tell yourself: I deserve love and respect. I am not better than anyone, and no one is better than me. My opinions matter, my thoughts matter, my feelings matter. God is my Father, and I am a virtuous woman whose value exceeds human comprehension.

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From today on I promise to stand up for myself and I hope you will too! I will be heard! If you are ever in one of these or any situation, and can’t seem to overcome it, remember to rely on God for strength. He cares about the big and the little problems in your life.

Verses to hold on to:

Phillippians 4:13 For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.

Matthew 11:28-30 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

xoxo,

Angela

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Dreams Do Come True

There’s no secret that I love to write. I have aspired to be a professional writer all of my life.

I oftentimes wonder if my writing skills are good enough. I have used countless grammar and writing apps. I constantly read articles from famous writings for their “5 tips to whatever” articles. I want to be good at it. I remember the first time I read Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston. I immediately felt I could never write as excellently as she did.

The way she captured the native dialect of the main character’s town, the way she made characters come alive. The way she influenced my thinking as a preteen, to the point that to this day, I am still searching for my “Tea Cake”–the main character Janie’s incredibly imperfect, but incredibly loving husband. Her book told me that soul crushing love was possible, and I believed her. I’ve been looking for that all my life (don’t worry, I haven’t given up!).

Everyday we see the results of people following their dreams. Even this laptop I’m typing this blog post on is the result of the dreams of a middle class, adopted kid from California. (Weird fact, Steve Jobs died on my birthday in 2011).

Say this aloud: MY DREAMS WILL COME TRUE! Your dreams matter. You are headed somewhere. Even if you are off track right now, even if you got distracted for a year or a month or two. Don’t give up!

I need you to fulfill your dreams. Every person benefits from the dreams of others (unless they are crazy or sadistic dreams. I’m talking about the positive ones). Dreams create jobs, feed families, make life easier, heal sick people and etc.

Inventions are dreams, books are dreams, the list goes on and on.

I know most of you have heard or read the story of Joseph. To read Joseph’s story, start in chapter 37 of Genesis, or you can click here to read it.

5One night Joseph had a dream, and when he told his brothers about it, they hated him more than ever. 6“Listen to this dream,” he said. 7“We were out in the field, tying up bundles of grain. Suddenly my bundle stood up, and your bundles all gathered around and bowed low before mine!”
8His brothers responded, “So you think you will be our king, do you? Do you actually think you will reign over us?” And they hated him all the more because of his dreams and the way he talked about them.
9Soon Joseph had another dream, and again he told his brothers about it. “Listen, I have had another dream,” he said. “The sun, moon, and eleven stars bowed low before me!”
10This time he told the dream to his father as well as to his brothers, but his father scolded him. “What kind of dream is that?” he asked. “Will your mother and I and your brothers actually come and bow to the ground before you?” 11But while his brothers were jealous of Joseph, his father wondered what the dreams meant.
Joseph had this dream as a young man, and yet they did not come to fruitiion until he was in his 30’s! This was before his brothers sold him into slavery and before he was falsely accused of rape and thrown into jail.
Genesis 41: 39-44
Then Pharaoh said to Joseph, “Since God has revealed the meaning of the dreams to you, clearly no one else is as intelligent or wise as you are. 40You will be in charge of my court, and all my people will take orders from you. Only I, sitting on my throne, will have a rank higher than yours.”
41Pharaoh said to Joseph, “I hereby put you in charge of the entire land of Egypt.” 42Then Pharaoh removed his signet ring from his hand and placed it on Joseph’s finger. He dressed him in fine linen clothing and hung a gold chain around his neck. 43Then he had Joseph ride in the chariot reserved for his second-in-command. And wherever Joseph went, the command was shouted, “Kneel down!” So Pharaoh put Joseph in charge of all Egypt. 44And Pharaoh said to him, “I am Pharaoh, but no one will lift a hand or foot in the entire land of Egypt without your approval.”
God has a plan and a purpose for you! Because Joseph was obedient to God, his dream of leadership came true. Keep in mind that God gave him the dream that he would lead also. God’s plan for us is so much greater than our own.
He knows that with the right pressure we can produce something more than we could ever dream. Joseph went through so many trials before leading Egypt, one of the leading world powers of that time period. But he never lost his trust in God, he didn’t give up on God during the process.
He always worked diligently and lived an upright life. He could have easily just slept with Potiphar’s wife. How many men or women today would turn away from someone who is begging them for sex like that?
Potiphar’s wife was wealthy, and likely beautiful. But Joseph ran from her. Although he was far from his family and from other Jews, he kept God’s commandments. Always remember, there is a reward for those who put God first.
The takeaway from all my blabbering is this: God has placed dreams in your heart. Every person on this earth has a purpose given to them by their Creator. Every. Single. Person. How many of us actually live out the dreams God has for us? How many of us give our lives to God for Him to fulfill His plan for us?

I pledge to be obedient, and I hope you’ll join me! My dreams, your dreams, are not just for your benefit. Your dreams can affect the entire world. Never think small. Get to work ladies! And never let anyone hate or knock on your dreams.